Sunday, April 02, 2006

In another 3 weeks I will be home. The knowledge of one year gone past is yet to sink in. Not now, not ever really, can I recall a 'homesickness' so to speak. Merely a "sick of here and now" accompanied by a strong something that would draw me back into a world that I thought, had given me everything it ever could.

Now I have to prepare to leave, all that I have known for a year - college, friends and the satisfaction of being busy. And prepare to be enveloped by a gilded summer in a city that I can never cease to love.

Once again there will be more streets than roads, sand between my toes from walks on the beach, nights that are quiet because the city is asleep and warm winds that caress the sunshine. I will find that I can comfortably predict with an uncanny sense of accuracy, all those who will surround me - friends who I have known long enough and well enough to miss. My father will disagree with my politics, just so he can check for himself, if I have grown at all as a person. There will be visible relief on my sister's face. Vanilla softies will sell for lesser, South Indian coffee will stem my caffeine addiction, bookstores will be smaller and adorably cluttered, the radio channels will sound better and there will be grass wherever I go.

Finally, I can leave behind all the tax-exclusive prices, noisy traffic and endlessly accumulating dust. I can leave it all behind for my own bed back home, with its characteristic soft sheets that my mother changes every week while thinking of me.

4 comments:

wake said...

okay butter muffin tell me this do you enjoy making ppl cry
idiot
love u tooonnness
puchi

buttermuffin said...

Umm no. It's just I can't think of much else right now. When its not a desperate attempt to pretend I'm working, I try looking as "obviously homesick" as possible. Works very well with the mother who's expecting her daughter home after a whole semester :D:D Besides, no time to think, let alone write :'(

Anonymous said...

ayyeah scene!!!!!!

buttermuffin said...

Ayyeah urself.. Just shaddup! ur in the list ok.. list of "friends iv known.. miss.. yada yada" ..now of course u WERE in THAT list, and ur ON my list instead.. (pha! Wordplay and all.. almost as if im flirting with you ananth!!)